My Grey World

Part 1
I stared at this boring “Write Post” page for so long, not knowing what to write. So I killed time by talking to my friends via MSN (something I rarely do after Plurk came, but then Plurk is getting boring nowadays). Then my friend Owen gave me this idea to write about how thankful [...]

I remember years ago when I was in junior high school, I borrowed a book from the library titled (if I’m not wrong) “Kisah-kisah yang Menyentuh Hati”/ “Touching Stories”. It is said to be a book that compiles stories that are frequently referenced by priests/preachers/basically any religious leaders.
I remember years ago I chanced upon this [...]

Indonesian Chinese
Chinese Indonesian
Chindo
Indochina
Cokin
Tong ngin
Tionghoa
Cina
There are a lot of things people use to call me and similar people : a person of Chinese descent/ancestry who was born and raised in Indonesia.
But in English-speaking world, I always choose to call myself “Indonesian Chinese”.
Sometimes I don’t use it at all, fearing discrimination or sorts. But most of the [...]

We get depressed.
Of course we do. Things don’t always go our way. Right?
Sometimes I find myself in a situation so depressing, I feel crippled to do anything. It’s all so impossible, and I’ll feel helpless.
But now, I think, sometimes I depress myself. It’s not the situation that depresses me, it’s me. Me myself and I. [...]

I started writing this entry around 1 month ago and forgot to finish it.
I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button some days ago (it was a midnight movie). I intended to write this after watching the movie but I was too tired.
Anyway, this is not a review of the movie. If you want to [...]

First of all, especially if you haven’t got attached before, please know that juggling boyfriend/girlfriend and friends AND a plethora of other stuff is tiring and impossible. There’s a reason why the term “supermom” (who juggles husband, children, work, and everything else) was invented, you know.
Second of all, please know that we still want to [...]

Sometimes I feel that I’m always in the middle.
Not good enough, but not bad either.
My grades are never top grades, but they’re still adequate to keep me from being kicked out. I play piano, finished my grade 7, but I’m still not able to play Chopin’s Fantasie Impromptu.
Perhaps it’s because of my nature of being [...]

Home. One word, four letters. How big is a word that can make me confused and insecure? Only a four-letter word.
So which one should I call home? After 2 years in Singapore, I know I’m very comfortable living here. I miss Singapore when I’m back in Jakarta, and vice versa.
But somehow I think people that [...]