Dear Nicole

Cece was excited and eager to see you ever since Cece’s sister (Cece Fiona/Ona) told Cece that Khew Mei (Auntie) was pregnant with you. Cece even browsed a lot of baby names website to search for a name for you. Cece has given names to your brother and sisters, even though only the middle name.

Cece is not coming home to Jakarta this year due to one or many reasons Cece hates. Cece was very, very busy, and then Cece Fiona sms-ed Cece to say that you had been born, and named Nicole days before. Cece was quite pissed, why didn’t she get told immediately earlier? Why did they forget me? Seems like your Kuku (auntie) and Kuchong (uncle) and other Ceces were too busy to inform Cece.

Soon enough, Cece Fiona updated Cece again. She said you were born with only one eye, and it had not been known whether it worked properly. Cece’s heart broke. But Cece still wanted to see you, even once. Cece wanted you to know and recognize Cece, who was also eager to see you coming to world.

But what can Cece do?

Yesterday, amidst of many unread Twitter messages that Cece was too lazy to read, Cece found an sms from Cece Fiona. It was just a sentence. One sentence. Five words.

“Nicole has just passed away….”

Cece cried. Hard.
Cece doesn’t really know why. She’s never seen you. You didn’t even know that Cece existed. Even Cece’s family had not been very eager to share news about you to Cece.
But Cece cried.

Perhaps you didn’t want to be a burden to your parents, who has already had 3 children. Perhaps you were suffering so much. Perhaps you couldn’t bear to see your parents suffering. Perhaps you didn’t want to live an imperfect life, and wanted to leave as soon as possible while you can.

Perhaps perhaps perhaps.. Quizás quizás quizás…

Whatever it might be……..

It’s unbelievable. It’s surreal. Before Cece has even had a chance to witness your existence, you are gone.

Rest in peace, Nicole.
Cece loves you. Cece knows she does. Even though she’s never seen you.

Good friday.. Really good =)

I really love stating this fact : I’m kinda free. I feel more relaxed than usual

This Good Friday I went to Church of St Peter and Paul. Initially I and my boyfriend wanted to go to the Cathedral of Good Shepherd but we have heard news about it being overcrowded. Heh. It’s usually overcrowded even in usual Sundays. Can’t imagine the crowd on this special day. Novena church even put a temporary “tent” outside the church building equipped with plastic chairs, fans, and projectors+screens.

And we were right! The church wasn’t overcrowded, and the choir sang pretty nicely. Unlike the choir of Novena Church that we heard on Holy Thursday.

After the service (which included stand-kneel-stand rites and kissing the cross), we decided to eat and walk around Bugis Junction. As a typical girl I went around to see the newest earrings and other accessories and then lamented the super expensive price. (seriously, why put price so high? I can buy many cheap earrings online. Like Bobo’s blog shop. Hehe!)

Few days ago I teased my boyfriend how we never have a “couple” thing. You know, something in pairs. Something very lovey-dovey, in my opinion. As I grow up I’ve grown more ignorant to these types of “romantic things to be done with boyfriend”.

But, well… =P

Apparently my boyfriend is a sucker for cute things too =P (sorry, honey =P)
The moment we saw those things we instantly fell in love and impulsively bought it!

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My boyfriend’s 19th birthday – the preps and the props

My beloved boyfriend turned 19 on March 18th 2008. I know, I know, he’s young. But so am I. I’m only 2 months younger! *hint hint*

anyway..

Arrrgghhh why is my FLickr post bar not working??? It hinders my blogging!! Grrrr

*turning to ScribeFire*

Okay, first off. Get a piece of paper, a pencil, a ruler, and a pair of scissors. Ready to go!

I have prepared “19 reasons why you should be happy that you’re turning 19 on March 18 2008″. Well if you can see in the picture it’s not 19 yet.. Well it took time to think about 19, you know!

I hand-wrote all the reasons on the paper lined earlier.

And sooo the reasons are cut one by one..

Finished cutting. It was kinda tiring..

Getting the pencils ready. You didn’t think I was going to give the reasons just like THAT, right? These pencils are metallic and colourful. Got them from Daiso. Hehe.

Another type of pencil I used. Just a simple wooden pencil. Got them from Daiso too.

On to the wrapping!

Wrap wrap wrap..

They look like birthday candles no?

The close up of the pencils.. This could have been a pretty picture had I had a better camera.

Hehehehehehehe. This is the 19th reason! Guess what the 19th reason is! =P

The mess left.. Hahaha

What’s left of the paper. My reasons were too wide so I had to trim them one by one.

Now is time to package them!

Due to time constraint.. I can only use this white envelope.

I hand-wrote those decorations too! It was “reasons” using different styles!

Stuff the pencils inside..

Add two cute rabbit-head pin and it’s good to go! LOLz

Now is time for the next present…

After finished packaging suddenly a crazy idea pops out in my mind. And I quickly grab my purse and go to the nearest FairPrice at Shaw Plaza.

And here it is…
Chocolate cornflake “cake”!
You will know why I put the cake into quotes…

The first step..

Melt the chocolate!
I have very few cooking utensils at my home (I and my housemates usually eat out anyway). So I use anything I can find.

Arrange the cornflakes into cupcake cups. Hahaha. Couldn’t find any other appropriate cups and my time was limited.. So yah I juz bought whatever was available.
Initially I only wanted to make a few pieces.. Maybe like 10?

I poured the chocolate and sprinkled hundreds and thousands. I ended up making 19 pieces. Coz it’s his 19th birthday, remember?
I know, I know, the chocolate cornflakes are far from pretty and super messy. My very first attempt, ok?

Oh and because I don’t have any tray whatsoever, I juz used serviettes and spread them on the kitchen counter. It’s pretty easy and clean, actually. After finished doing everything I just gather the serviettes and throw them away. No washing necessary.

The close up.. Damn, I really want a proper digital camera. Preferably with macro. =(

And thennnnnnn….
I was confused about how to present the chocolate cornflakes for him. I didn’t have any board or anything that resembles that and I didn’t have time to go out and buy something again. And sooooo.. I proudly call myself creative. I took a plate and arrange the pieces in a circular way and pile some of them up and ta-dah! You can see the result!

another view of the “cake”

And here’s my boyfriend with the “cake”. Wonder what he’s looking at. Hahahaha.

He’s opening the presents! And as expected.. He only found 18 reasons inside the envelope and asked me for the 19th reason. So I gave him that enormous pencil… Hehehe.. I didn’t have time to take photo since he was already busy… Ehm… Hehehehehe =P

Happy birthday my darling! Hope you have a blast!

Flunk my midterms

I practically failed all my midterms.
So far I’ve known the results of two midterms and well.. So to say.. Not good. Not good at all.

Sad. Disappointed.

Friends keep telling me it’s okay, but please. It’s not. It’s happened. And it’s going to affect my final result.

Depressed.

Valentine’s Day Down Syndrome

No pun intended.

I know I should be feeling happy and lovey-dovey and all, especially since I’m attached on Valentine’s day, but I really feel kinda sad right now…

It’s just that.. Everything doesn’t turn out as I expected. I haven’t been planning for my Valentine’s day simply because I was too confused on what to do and when I finally decided on something, that plan can’t be executed… =(

I know my boyfriend is planning for me some dinner or some kind, but still.. I feel guilty.. This is a special Valentine for me. I mean, I’ve been attached several times (4 times to be exact) but this time.. It’s really different. I mean, he even took me to see his parents. Ain’t that something? My previous ex-boyfriends only said that they’re going to take our relationship kinda higher but in the end.. Never happened.

And this is the first time that I can spend Valentine’s day away from my parents. I’m not being mean. It’s just that.. I gotta admit that I’m more free. Which means.. I got plenty of opportunities to spend with my boyfriend. My previous relationships have been “back-street” which was kinda fun while having certain limitations.

I know he’s been going so much trouble to plan for something. And, well, you know, it’s the Valentine’s Day. I don’t believe people saying “Why celebrate? Everyday is Valentine’s Day!”. (Seriously, those people must be single.) The Valentine’s Day only happened once a year. And while a year also has so many events to be celebrated (monthversary, anniversary, birthdays), it’s just… Different.

And tomorrow I have a meeting scheduled at 9.30-12.00. And then I have a short piano course from 14.30 to 15.30. And most probably there would be another meeting at 15.30-17.00. See? I can’t get enough time to plan or to buy or to do anything.

Dear my darling,
if you see this,
please know that I feel so bad and guilty and sorry.
And I love you…

2nd Monthversary “celebration”

My relationship turned 2 months at 25 January and so we decided to get together and.. just be merry =D

Actually we already talked about this since we were still in holiday at Jakarta. We should buy a cake and eat together, celebrating Christmas, New Year, and our 1st monthversary (that time).

Actually that’s just a lame reason for us to eat a cake together XD

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Happy 2 Months

It’s been 2 months since we’re officially dating. (And we actually made up the date nyahahaha)
Or maybe it should be counted as 1 month since we didn’t see each other for 1 month at holiday =P

It sure feels longer.
And I hope it will be even longer =)

I pray
that I will have strength
courage
perseverance

To stay still and be at your side..

Don’t you worry about a thing, coz I’m staying.

And everything’s gonna be ok……… =)

Dearest readers,
I sincerely ask for your prayers for my beloved boyfriend.
He hasn’t been very well and we haven’t quite known what’s really wrong
‘Til we know, we seek your prayers and support.
Thank you =)

I’m The One. You Don’t Need To Worry.

Darling, i luv u not becoz of ur looks. Not becoz of ur money. U can b sure that out of those millions, i’m the one. =)

out of those ppl who like u or approach u,i’m the one who really luv u.

I’m the one. You don’t need to worry about any others.

=)

Of course, my boyfriend didn’t write this. He’s not that poetic type. All text here is copyright of me, so yea, I wrote it =P
Originally in sms. I intentionally send the message via bluetooth to my computer to be copy-pasted. LoL.