What a funny thing to be…

I still remember that nite when that bad ugly f**kin’ depression syndrome came out.

I was crying like crazy. And I pinched my left arm so hardly that it left a bruise. 3, to be exact.

It was because my mom didn’t allow me to enter SMU, and I had to continue in UPH instead.

After that nite, my nites are so…. Ugly.
Moving around like crazy. Crying like crazy. Letting out howling sounds. Ya maybe I was really crazy………

Now, it’s such a funny thing when I experienced that syndrome again, when I already entered SMU.

and for you skeptics, all i said is real.

definitely not wordpress-savvy

Oh s**it why did I lose the blogpost I’ve typed???? Gah.

Yea people, I’m planning to move to wordpress……… If I could configure it.
I hope that it’s that damn good as always promoted by Aditya. =P
“More flexible, more freedom to customize, can do this can do that while blogger cannot, etc. etc. etc….”
just so you know, he really said those. =P

If you guys want to see how a wordpress blog look like, don’t hesitate to open his blog as linked on his name stated before. (what a run-on sentence)

Now I’m struggling with completely new things like FTP, MySQL, and whatever it is lah. Hope I can really do that. hahahaha.

Now I gotta go back to my ELW essay and LTB slides.

If only my blog doesn’t hold the no-harsh-word policy (well I never said that did I? Never mind. =P), I would really love not to censor these words below :

F**k all this assignments! What a s**t! D**n d**n d**n!!! Just die you f**kin assignment!! Die die die!! If only you could die.

Hmm. Okay. That relieves me a bit. =P

Have a good day people, while I won’t have mine.
Sigh.

flexible tongue

Believe me I really did research to write this blogpost. Usually a blogpost won’t require a research but apparently I did a research.
Not that I want to make this blogpost “cool” by having many links to different reference websites. Because I just need a good reference to address the topic well. (euh I sound like making an important essay or something)
ANd I should spend the time researching for one blogpost to do a research about my topic for my ELW.

Okay what I want to talk about is the so-called flexibility of my tongue. Oh and my research successfully failed because instead of finding a term to define this, I got bunch of articles about programming languages. (freaks me out) I tried to search “flexible tongue”, then “flexible tongue language”, then “flexible tongue language human”, then “adaptability to new language”, and so on. It will cost me one full blogpost to really list them all.

I also tried Yahoo! Answers. But the only decent answer was “linguist” which certainly is not the case. Or a polyglot. No no, that’s not what I mean.

What I mean by “flexible tongue” (we should agree to use this term since I’ve got no term to describe that. Oh wait. Did I just coin a new term?) is that the (extreme) adaptability to a new language.
Like what happened to me. I somehow have this weird “intelligence” (dunno a word to describe it) to learn a new language fastly, or to make it fresher as it just happened, to adapt a new accent/dialect fastly. (Read : Singlish)

I’ve only lived in Singapore for two months and have (extremely) adapted to Singlish. It’s such a shock for me everyday for hearing me saying things like
“Lidat can or not?” Can it be like that?
“Can lah, why cannot?” Of course it can be done, why not?
“You want to go where?” Where do you want to go?
“Can meh?” Are you sure it can really be done?

Well well well. Look at that. What a short way to say a long sentence.. And be understood rather than using the “good” one. Nah, ignore it. Just a feature of Singlish.

My friend said that it’s not a weird thing because it also occurs to many Indonesians, who everyday speak to Singaporeans. But the thing is, the Indonesians he was referring to have been in Singapore for at least 3 years.
Please explain to me the reason why I can speak nearly like them in only 2 months.

If that’s not enough, please tell me why I can speak Balinese accent in just 3 days of staying there.

It always depends on whom I talk to. If the person speaks “good” English which I actually don’t know the parameter is, I can speak like that. If the person talking to me in Singlish, I will reply in Singlish (especially after I understand the different structure they have from the proper English). Or in case in home my auntie talks to me in Chinese of Hakka dialect, I will also reply in Hakka.

That’s the curious case. Why the hell can I be like that? It’s all about switching (though I experience some lingo-confusion -don’t try to google this word because I just made it up-) and switching. But still.. I feel.. Awkward. Especially hearing myself speaking that dialect (I think I should consider it as a dialect). Unexpectedly. Unintentionally.
Freaks me out. Just so you know.

I can accept the fact that my Indonesian friend who has stayed in Singapore for 7 years if not more has developed Singlish.
But how about me?

And know I don’t even know whether I should consider it as a should-be-rejoiced thing or an awkward-and-annoying thing.

Oh, if someone finds the term for that flexible tongue thingy, tell me okay..

Till we meet again. (ugh?)

sorry.. sylv got nothing better to do.. =P

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, anad sociable. Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer – Bank President – Camp Director City Manager – Judge – Lawyer Recreation Leader – Real Estate Agent – Sales Person School Principal – Travel Agent – TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

Errrmm.. okay.. so why the hell am I here at SIS?? Hehe

You’re a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It’s pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

Someone to kiss me.. Romantically? (eh is it the rite grammar?)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence

Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone. You are good at analyzing yourself – and knowing your true feelings. Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires. A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others. You would make a great philosopher, researcher, or theorist.

Guess I should spend more time with friends.. (oh haven’t I had enuff??)

Oh whatever. They should have a quiz on Singlish. Hahaha

You Are 50% Psychic

You are pretty psychic. While you aren’t Miss Cleo, you’ve got a little ESP going on. And although you’re sometimes off on your predictions… You’re more often right than wrong So go with your instincts – you know more than you think

Whoo.. Should I?

Errr.. gotta go take a bath for a while (have become pretty addicted)

Your Learning Style: Energetic and Inspired

You always find the words to express yourself, and there’s hardly a class or subject you don’t enjoy. You Should Study: Advertising Art Classics Counseling Journalism Political Science Sales Teaching

Omigod. No computer in that at all. Ugh. I should change my major. =P Har har har

You Are 48% Intuitive

Your intuition is often right, and you use it more than you may realize. Your gut feelings are usually a good guide, but you need more to go on when making a decision. You’ll often check to see if the facts back up your feelings. And when your intuition is wrong, you work to improve it for the future.

Well well well.. (speechless)

You Are a Link Blogger!

Your blog is more about cool links than thougtful posts. Better to be entertaining and breif than longwinded and boring!

Eh? This one you decide lah..haha

Enuff already..huhuhuhuhu

hayzee…

I mean, hazy.

Yeah, Singapore’s really hazy those days. Can’t see clearly. And they say it is the highest level ever. Don’t believe me? HERE.

There’s been a dilemma in myself. On one side, I’m really annoyed with that foggy haze, but on the other side, it’s my country (specifically, the fire in my country) which caused this haze. Well call this as nationalism, when I feel that everybody is blaming my country, I feel blamed too.

My my, I’m such a good citizen. Gonna love Indonesia forever.

Despite the fact that they’re exporting no better thing than haze.

But whatever.

Yes darlings, if you’ve been waiting, I’ve got photos. The link I gave you just gave you one photo. I got more! Yeay!

Taken from my window

That straight light is a part of an exhibition of Singapore Biennale.

Me n Yanice. Can’t u juz see that haze behind us?

Oh btw, we took this photo on SMU admin building level 6. Cool eh?

Photos not clear? No complaint please. Even if I’m using N70 now not the 3660 anymore.
But didn’t I tell you that it was hazy?
It IS.

UPDATE

Even worse.

blogging in order to prepare for tomorrow’s midterm

Yeah tomorrow I will experience my first midterm exam in SMU. ANd it is a writing exam. So, I guess I’ll blog now in order to prepare. A weird way, it is, but it is WRITING, rite? So no complaints please.

How’s the week 6 going? Good good. Hmm. If only you could see my eyes. Oh, correction. My eyeBAGs. It’s been hanging there since.. what… 3 weeks ago? What a great decoration for my now-got-pimples-everywhere face. Ergh. The SMU so-called “Edge” (it’s a pdf file btw) can also eat away beauty.

Okay. My midterm tomorrow is about persuasive writing. You know, writing a persuasive request or something about that. No, it is that. I got D in my first assignment. Wow. D for Dead. D for Dumb. D for Dodol. Oh ok Dumb and Dodol means the same, but whatever.

My my. Such an unmeaningful blogpost.

I should go to bed instead. Haven’t slept properly these days. But I think now the 5-hour-sleep can be considered as very very proper in SMU. When I was doing my Individual Project, I slept at 6 AM and had to wake up at 7.30 AM coz I got class at 8.30 AM. My my my. (Oh, do you really need to ask whether I was sleepy or not??)

I really don’t know what to say now. I really should be going to sleep.
And dream about my failed midterm test.

internet-dependent..

I never realized that I’m that internet-dependent.

But it’s so clear when my housemate said :

“Kayaknya ga ada gunanya deh sms lo. Ga pernah dibales”
“I think it’s no use to sms you. You never reply”

Well, the reason is I really seldom to look at my hp now. It’s not like when I’m in Indonesia; always willing to take a glance at my cell. Even just one. And found out that there’s nothing going on in my cell (no new sms, no new call) would disappoint me.

But you know what my reply was?

“Sori, gua emang jarang buka hp. Lain kali kalo gua lagi di sekolah e-mail gua aja”
“Oh sorry, I seldom look at my hp. Just e-mail me instead if I’m in school”

Er… D~uh?
E-mail me? Eh? Whadda?
I guess that’s what my housemate was thinking about me.

And it’s even clearer today.

I phoned my housemate earlier today.

“Cia, kenapa tadi nelpon gua?”
“Cia, why did you call me?”

“Hah? Gua ga nelpon lo kok”
“Huh? I didn’t call you..”

“Loh, tapi ada missed call dari lo di hp gua”
“But I see one missed call from you in my cell”

“Wah, itu mah dah lama banget!”
“Oh my, it was a long time ago!”

Well, okay then. I ended the call. Then back to computer, checking e-mail. The last e-mail was like…. 5 minutes ago?

Well well well.

Ladies and gentlemen, Sylvia Giacinta is officially internet-dependent.

yeay! yeay! *throws confetti*

THis is the moment when we should rejoice! Yeay!

My individual project #1 is finished!!!! Yeeeaaaayyyy!!

BUT

note the capitalized but here T_T

still got IP #2, presentation (plus report), IS200 group project (read : programming), LTB community service project, and so on and so on and so on…

sometimes i’m asking myself what was i chasing for when I struggled to enter SMU.

I guess I wasn’t chasing for sleepless nights and stay-overs at school.

THen what?
For this stupid beep-here-beep-there-to-get-in card?

For this cool buildings?

(along with the cool seminar room which even got this little space to put your nameplate… Class participation is so happening! oh and not to forget places to plug your laptops!)

what? What was I chasing for?