The Middle Girl

Sometimes I feel that I’m always in the middle.

Not good enough, but not bad either.

My grades are never top grades, but they’re still adequate to keep me from being kicked out. I play piano, finished my grade 7, but I’m still not able to play Chopin’s Fantasie Impromptu.

Perhaps it’s because of my nature of being jack-of-all-trades. I don’t quite understand why I became one. Perhaps it was because of several lessons I took when I was a child. I never know.

The saying “jack of all trades, master of none” scares me sometimes.

After all it kinda sucks being a middle girl. People know you can, but you’re not the expert. You’re not the best.

Countless people have told me that I need to choose one. I need to focus.

But I honestly tell you, I can’t.

I’ve analyzed each of my interests, weigh them, see whether they’ll benefit me in the future, and the blah and the blah and the blah.

I got tired. But after pondering for some time (actually quite a long time) for this, I think I know my passion : to know a lot about as many things as I can.

However that still doesn’t free my status as “The Middle Girl”.

I still don’t know, though, whether it’s a blessing or a curse. What do you think?

—BONUS—

A video of Chopin’s Fantaisie Impromptu (I don’t know whether I spelt it right. Don’t bash me if I didn’t)

A video of me playing “Giga” by John Loeillet. This was my exam piece for my grade 7 exam. Be aware though that I don’t play this clumsily for my exam! Haha. This was just one of my practice, I wanted to know how I sounded so I recorded it. This video is also dedicated to Wilfrid, who, if I remember correctly, asked to see my piano performance. Well here’s one of my unglam performance.

sylv playing piano – john loeillet – giga from Sylvia Giacinta on Vimeo.