My Grey World

I hear the “Why, why” ringing.
Oh, Why
Why are you still here, oh Why?

Why, Why, why am I still asking?
When I know it’s all because of me
Too coward to continue
Too afraid to listen
Refusing to know the truth

So, why, Why, why are you still here?
Floating around, singing “Why, why, why”
Along with the what-ifs
Along with the memories
Memories of crushed hopes and sleepless nights
Memories of tears and swallowed pain
Pain, Pain, why did you come with Why?
Tears, Tears, why are you still rolling down?

Tell me why, Why, why can’t I let go?
Why, Why, why can’t I stop?

Oh, Why
You have stayed in my mind for so long
Now why, Why, why can’t you just go?

I hear the why why ringing
Hi, Why
I wish I can say bye to you soon…

And thus it was 23rd of May, the first day of the competition.. It was the sacred music category.

I didn’t take a lot of pictures since I was, obviously, singing. My choir’s repertoire for the sacred category..

1. Ave Maria attributed to T. L. de Victoria
2. Exsultate Justi by Lodovico Viadana
3. Dona Nobis Pacem by Urmas Sisask
4. Salmo 150 (Psalm 150) by Ernani Aguiar
5. Didn’t It Rain arranged by Bob Chilcott

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Supposedly.

So after extending for one week, Friday, 22nd of August should be my last day of internship. This post could have been a light-hearted and witty post just like my friend Jesse misses and filled with joy and you’ll feel invited to congratulate me.

Supposedly.

I still had 3 tasks pending until my last day….

Task #1. Create a department website.
- Still waiting for one photo to be put on profile page
- Still waiting approval for it to be really up

Task #2. Revamp another department’s website.
- Made some changes, waiting for approval
(after a hell of time cleaning up the codes. Apparently the intern before me wanted to use a free CSS script and instead of copy-pasting the script and tweaking it, she………… saved the whole example page and edited it.)

Task #3. Revamp an application welcome page
- Proposed a design, but said to be plain
- Proposed another design, said to be “amateurish”
- Made a design based on requirements, got feedbacks, changed, and still waiting for approval

The key thing is approval.

My supervisor was not in the office on Wednesday. Never mind, I thought. I’d just send him the updates of the webpages. I also sent emails requesting for leaving the office early coz I need to perform on Vivace (CCA Day) with the choir.

Unfortunately, I fell sick on Wednesday night and doctor said that my bad migraine is caused by exhaustion. He gave me MC for the next day (Thursday), and so I didn’t come on Thursday. I sms-ed the supervisor about it and he said “Ok just rest. See you tomorrow” or something like that.

And so I came this morning. No sight of supervisor. Opened e-mails. No single reply of e-mails. I was like pushing the Send/Receive button a thousand time. Nah. Nada. Then I tried to finish pending tasks (at least finish the requirements so I’ll only need approval), cleaning up stuff and codes, and waiting for supervisor.

Nah he’s not there. Asked a colleague about his whereabouts. She said the supervisor didn’t come yesterday either, but should be coming today. Okay, I thought.

11 AM. No sight of him. And I need to leave by about 12 (lunch time) so that I’ll have time to go to school and get ready for performance. Okay what the hell, I thought. I sms-ed him again. Loooooooong sms. I told him that I need to go, and it seems that he didn’t read the emails and he won’t come soon. And after checking my schedule, I told him that I would probably be back for just a day, which is on next Thursday. And I would need to leave by 3 PM too. (class is on 3.30)

He replied “Ok. Thank’s.”

I packed and left.

Whatever.

Yes this is sooo important because I think this is the first time ever in my life that I have 6 friends celebrating their birthday in the same date. They might not be born in the same year, but… you got the idea.

So…

Happy Birthday to Kristia!

Happy Birthday to Daryl!

Happy Birthday to Gabriel!

Happy Birthday to Jerrick!

Happy Birthday to Nicole!

Happy Birthday to Noni!

I wish you all a fabulous birthday and years ahead!

With Lovesss,
Your friend Sylv

Sad look

(eyeshadows - 3 shades of orange - from The Make Up Shop)

Act cute look

(First time trying mineral make up from Everyday Minerals!)

ROAR

(Eyeshadows from Shu Uemura and Bourjois. Eyeliner from The Body Shop. Using mineral make up foundation and blush)

Nah. No photoshop at all for these photos.

Can’t talk much. Headache diagnosed as migraine. Have to rest. Tata.

I’m not back to school yet.

I decided to extend my internship so that I will meet my 10-week requirement. Hence I’m skipping the first week of school.

It’s not based on a shallow reason to complete my 10-week requirement. It’s solely based on my preference that next time i would like to undertake another type of internship (not IS internship). IS internship requires at least 10 weeks, and if I don’t finish my IS internship now, I will need to do another IS internship later. And which company will offer 1-week internship? That means, if I don’t finish the 10-week now, I will have to embark on another full IS internship and thus hampering me to do another type of internship.

And in the theme of “since so many people asked…”, my 2nd major is Corporate Communications.
I know IS+Corporate Communications = ? or even bleh, but never mind. It is what I like to do, and that’s it.

Have a great day all…
I’m so looking forward to be back at school! I miss school!

I’m serious about this.

Take a look at this..

Yes the photo is photoshopped. Don’t bitch.

Anyway, it was my first time using fake eyelashes! Bought a starter kit in Sasa, which I don’t recommend buying at all! It cost me 16.90 and it consists of one pair of falsies, glue, and eyelash applicator. But then! The eyelash applicator is only a piece of plastic folded into two and supposedly will help you hold the falsies. The eyelashes were made in Indonesia (HAHAHA OMG), and the glue is just so little. DON’T BUY. SERIOUSLY.

A view from the side (so you can really see the falsies)

Just as my hair, my eyelashes are straight, as in very very straight and very “weak”. As in, it always drops down. Nothing can help it. I’ve tried the eyelash curler, the conventional one and the battery-operated one with the heating base. Mascara, no matter how curvy the brush is, doesn’t really work either. What did work was I put on some mascara and curl it after that. I know it’s the wrong order, but it was the only thing that worked!

But anyway with my pretty falsies I can do more! And prettier!

So yes, fake means beautiful here.

Happy Independence Day, my dear home country. Haven’t seen your face in almost a year. Heard you’re doing good. And by good I mean as usual. And by as usual I mean just as bad as before.

Nevertheless I’m sure people will rejoice in this independence day (which falls on a holiday no less!). Though you might not have big platform with thousands of people performing/watching or magnificent fireworks like what the country I live in had, I’m sure independence day is a happy moment, happier than all things.

63. You’re getting old. But still strong. Be proud. So far the only thing we lost is the East Timor which is not that big loss anyways. A lot of rebels tried to break free but no, they’re still there, and we’re still one. Indonesia.

Yes I guess it’s time to pat yourself in the back and be glad that, well, after years of threats, you’re still one. United.

Happy Independence Day, Indonesia. Even though I’m not there at the moment you know my citizenship still belongs to you.
And my heart too.